A yearning

In the blanket of anonymity,
I wander far and wide.
Helter skelter i foray;
Destination, i can't decide.

My mind is empty.
My heart feels shallow.
Uncertain steps
on paths made hallow,
by many a traveller,
before me, they set,
on a similar journey,
unexpected to expect.

Where to I cannot say
from these fields of abandon.
Let the winds lead my way.
Let my deeds come undone.

Let this journey erase all past,
pain hath lain my heart bare.
Towards a new day i yearn to look
let only joy dwell in air.

With each step bring me close
to that which I couldn't possess.
With each breath let me feel
the warmth of love, a loving caress.

Take me away into the midst
of peace of mind, into sweet mist,
in constant revelry and unbound freedom
towards high seas and sand sun-kissed.

Do I ask too much
or am I not content?
Which of the two pray
worry me unto no end?

Is it not fair
to ask a little out of life?
Is it not right to see fruits of unending strife?
Is it not believed
in His presence, His peace,
nothing goes unheard
of joined hands and bent knees?

......

She had gone..
life wasn't the same.
I tried to move on,
and hide the pain.

She missed me she said.
And the same I felt.
Lovely words of hers could
make any one's heart melt.

And then a cruel turn,
fate decided to take.
Misery and heartburn.
A smile gone fake.

He woke up one day,
to realize his fate.
"She wasn't true."
"She never was mate!"

Hoping against hope,
that what he heard was a lie,
he probed a little further,
till he let out a sigh.

One day she was perfect.
The next she was framed.
On the third, she was doubted,
And on the fourth, she was blamed.

I sometimes walk by,
the place where we kissed.
My mind imagining,
a love that we missed.

A love undying,
Of promises promised.
A shattered soul leaving
only hurt to be reminisced.